I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW
I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
Oh, yes I can make it now the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is that rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is that rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies.........
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies.........
Songwriters: Johnny Nash
Just after the diagnosis, when only my husband, children and brother knew, I went through an “Even If” period (yes it was a period, it wasn’t just a moment). I confess it wasn’t a brave declaration. It was more a trembling whimper... even if it is not part of Your plan to heal me please don’t let me embarrass You!! Am I brave? Nope! I’m as much of a wimp as the next person. Did I worry about pain, disfigurement, nausea and losing my hair ? Oh yes... especially the losing the hair bit. I needed His grace to take several deep breaths. Then I could see clearly. I’ve shared with many people that the devil works in the noise and confusion of doubts and fears but if we would only slow down, even stop and wait for the wind and dust and noise to stop swirling around us we would hear His voice. Really.
What obstacles did I have to face? The cancer ? Oh ya, major obstacle that. Side effects? Yes but the greatest obstacle to peace of mind and solid faith was fear of the unknown. It was a new path that I had to walk myself. Family and friends cheered me on from the starting point but I, like Bilbo Baggins, had to walk by myself there and back again. It amused me to think of myself facing down trolls, spiders (eeee), orcs, wargs even Smaug but there were times when God sent eagles to lift me away from the danger of losing hope. Prayers and steadfast loving support from family and a few faithful friends who walked with me and stayed within hailing distance ( read : daily WhatsApp encouragement) were my eagles.
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