Beginnings

This weekend we are in Jakarta. Richard presided over the Holy Matrimony of Jushan Djuwardi and Friyana Wati Ong.

As usual my eyes glistened as I heard them say their vows in Indonesian for heir families to understand and in English for Richard to understand 😉. Weddings are filled with hope and dreams- a new life together with someone else. The songs they chose were beautiful proclaiming their belief that there us nothing impossible for God as the Spirit of God works in our midst. They ended the service thanking God for His grace without which we would not live- simple, beautiful and touching.

Those songs spoke differently to me. I am not standing poised at the beginning of a new covenant, a new family.

I'm poised at the beginning of a journey into a slightly more scary unknown where my dream is not to waste my cancer as Ps John Piper advises.

I face a hardened, relentless enemy who wages guerrilla warfare, turning my own cells against me. I'm essentially fighting myself. Some part of me has to die for the rest of me to live. ( heh - that'll make a great sermon☺️)

I am fearfully and wonderfully made says the bible.  And so I am. I am amazed at how fast the body recovered from surgery. The surgeons removed the lymph nodes on the right side. Their job was to help drain fluid and since their removal it seems that the remaining nodes have not yet stepped up to the plate and divided the extra workload. It's rather like a corporation where four key staff are retrenched. HR does not  hire replacements so their colleagues have to buckle down and work harder to clear the backlog. Same with the seroma ( post- surgery fluid accumulation)

Discernment and wisdom are desperately needed here. Which route do I take on this new leg of my journey? Chemo, radiation and hormone blockers OR Garden of Eden living?

More after we discuss radiotherapy tomorrow

God is in Control!!!